Page 342: Im Hurt, Much

Im hurt.
Much.

 Because I need to talk to someone.
But I cant find any. 

Because you are so busy with your world.
You forget that you are my world. 

Because everything else is so important.
It hurt me to the core.

 Because excuses is the only thing that you can give.
You forget you give me thousands of them.
Excuses will always be excuses.
Excuses is not apology.
But thousands of apology eventually become excuses.

 Because I dont have any other choices.
I make up my mind. That enough is enough.

Enjoy your life.
Im not there to entertain you anymore.
You deserved to be out of my life.
And I deserve better.

Im hurt.
Much.

Page 339: "The wound is still there"

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper.
His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.
The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence.
Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down.
He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.
Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all.
He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.
The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence.
He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there." 

Page 275: Correction Mode

Hello Oktober!

Masih mode correction.

Semoga semuanya baik-baik saja oktober.

:)

Page 202: Ramadhan the 12th

Weekend well spent.
Alhamdulllah.
Tak de la buat ape pon.
Tapi balik penang.
Well spent la kan.
Now counting hours nak naik bas dah.
Balik kumpul kekuatan dan logik akal kepala otak sebenarnya.
Yela sape la tak down kalau dah sngsorang.
Alone and lonely.
Alonely lonely.
Pon boleh!

Resepi cheesekut sangat awesome.
Simple je tp boleh la kan.
Rupa buruk tapi rasa sangat awesome.
Well dont judge a book by its cover katanya.
Okey tu je nk type.
Bye~

Page 196: Ramadhan the 6th

Bukan setiap masa nak indah belaka.
Supaya kita belajar erti susah payah.
Supaya kita belajar erti berusaha gigih.
Supaya kita belajar erti tak putus asa.
Hidup ni atas bawah selalu je tak kira masa.

Correction process.
Banyak.
Belambak.
Sentiasa doa supaya selalu kuat.
Sentiasa perlu motivasi.
Sentiasa.

Sebab bila je rasa macam duduk sorang2, senang je lah down.
Dalam hati penuh rumah rumah rumah.
Semua cantik gambaran rumah tetap paling cantik.

Sikit lagi faiqah
Sikit betul.
Sikit je.

Be strong!

Page 190: Off Thesis, Viva and Ramadhan

Alhamdulillah.
Last week dah submit the final draft of my dissertation.
Sungguh serabutnya Dia je yang Maha Mengetahui.
Was crying like crazy every night and cry myself to sleep.
Sungguh penangan macam maha dasat.
Tapi memang dah janji Allah kata kalau kita tak mampu tanggung beban tu, tak la kita face benda tu kan.
Sangat terima kasih beri ribu ribu lemon untuk kakak Nurul sebab teman siang malam until the day to submit the final draft.
Jasa mu sungguh dikenang dan tak terbalas rasanya.
Siap teman pegi Johor semua.
Alhamdulillah.

Terima kasih for everyone yang bagi moral support.
Walaupun x mampu nak tolong buatkan kan.
Tapi memang I really need moral support masa-masa kecederaan macam tu.
Sebab bila rasa duduk sendiri sorang-sorang xde orang nak cakap, xde org nak bg support,
laju jelah hujan turun luar dalam.
Allah.
Serabut sangat.
Tapi berkat doa semua orang alhamdulillah the phase was over.
Sempat submit final draft.
Alhamdulillah. Feel so blessed surrounded by positive and inspired people.

Hari ni pulak dah selesai viva.
Alhamdulillah walaupun rasa not that good and far from best tapi berjaya la present and jawab soalan examiner.
Cumenye banyak jugak nak kene betulkan.
Mohon doa semua dapat siap kan correction within the tie given.
Lepas tu boleh la balik beraya dengan hati yang setenang air dikali hendaknye.

tepek gambar sendiri konon hilang nebes nk viva.. hilang lah sgt..blergh

Dan esok dah mula berpuasa.
Kepada semua, Ramadhan Kareem!!
InsyaAllah setiap amalan kita membawa kita ke syurga.
Semoga bertambah amalan dan menuai pahala sehabes baik.
Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa.

Page 165: Yang tak terluahkan.

Theres no word to describe who you are to me.
Setiap apa yang pernah di lakukan.
Setiap apa yang pernah diberi.
Takkan pernah berjaya saya senaraikan.
It must be hard for you to have one and only daughter.
Ive been fighting everything to make you feel proud of me.
I know im not the best like other people's daughter.
Im not the most beautiful of all.
Im not the kindest girl in the world.
But im trying my heart out to be the best for you.

Selamat hari bapa.
Walid, you are irreplaceable!

*homesick mode automatically on*

Page 157: Counting

21 days to go.

Allah Allah Allah.

Permudahkanlah.

Page 142: Put the glass down

Hari ini kita bagi story that was being shared over and over again.


A psychologist walked around a room while teaching stress management to an audience.
As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they’d be asked the “half empty or half full” question.
Instead, with a smile on her face, she inquired:
 ”How heavy is this glass of water?”
Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. to 20 oz.
She replied,
“The absolute weight doesn’t matter. It depends on how long I hold it.
If I hold it for a minute, it’s not a problem.
If I hold it for an hour, I’ll have an ache in my arm.
If I hold it for a day, my arm will feel numb and paralyzed.
In each case, the weight of the glass doesn’t change, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes.”
She continued,
“The stresses and worries in life are like that glass of water.
 Think about them for a while and nothing happens.
Think about them a bit longer and they begin to hurt.
And if you think about them all day long, you will feel paralyzed – incapable of doing anything.” It’s important to remember to let go of your stresses.
As early in the evening as you can, put all your burdens down.
Don’t carry them through the evening and into the night.

Remember to put the glass down! 

Positive!

Page 133 : Laugh

"Laugh often and it will cleanse your mind. Laugh often at yourself and it will cleanse your heart."

 Though we often seem to forget natural remedies to life,
one of the best ways to clean our hearts, and purge our thoughts,
is to laugh as often as possible.
A little known fact about a smile is how much harder it is to frown than smile.
When you smile you use less energy and less effort than you do when you frown,
and this is symbolic of what happens in everyday life as well.
 When you go through life, in a celebratory fashion, with passion, motivation, drive, happiness, and a kind attitude, you will find that life is much less stressful than if you chose to go through life in a negative fashion.
Instead of giving your focus to the negative, make a mission to be as positive as possible each day. Make a pledge to laugh often, so that your mind will be as free as it may possibly be.

"A day without laughter is a day wasted." - Charlie Chaplin
 Laughter is one of the best nutrients a person can get in a day.
Not only is laughter therapeutic for the soul, it is also helpful in building rapport with others, strengthening relationships, and it is helpful in bringing down our own personal stress levels.
 When you are able to make other people laugh, it is often noted that you help to bring down walls of defensiveness, by giving them a way to see more of who you really are,
and that you may not be the person they had already predetermined you to be.
 Also, when you attempt to make light of some situations by making it ok to laugh at them,
pain levels that would have otherwise resulted from stressing over the situation in a negative manner are greatly reduced before they are even felt.
 Change your life today and give way to laughter.
Make it a point to laugh as much as possible, and never take yourself so seriously that you forget how too.

Source: YoLo

Page 130 : Kerja

Im still in Penang.
Well, xde kelas kan.
Buat cuti sendiri sesuke suki lah.
Wahaha.

Hari ni faiq masuk kerja lambat.
Dy kata supervisor dy simpan semua message cuti dy.
Ada 60.
Simpan tunjuk kat bos.
Sebab bos nk potong leave pay.
Tapi semua alasan x sama langsung.
Takde point nk potong.

"Hafidz you punya alasan langsung x sama. You memang alasan punya org"

Hahahahaha.
Gile.

Page 111: Weekend with love

Terima kasih kesayangan!

Seronotnya mandi peluh.

Nanti beli basikal ajak ai okeh.. Hihi

Page 109: Jumaah Mubarakah

Life is full of blessings.
HE knows when to send amazing people in when I'm going through hard times.
HE just knows who to send in to make me feel better.
To the amazing people who were always there, I cant thank you enough.
But still, thank you so much.
Thank you so very much.
You know who you are.

:)

Page 106: Tergezut ai

*ting*
Email masuk.
Bukak email.
Naseb tak de sakit jantung.

Cezzz.
Lambat lagi la lambat lagi.
Eh.
Ke cane?

Page 83: Makjemah

Facetime with pika in canterburry

Sampai bila-bila

:)

Page 78: Bersyukur

Manusia selalu lupa bersyukur.
Manusia selalu lupa.
Selalu.

Kita merungut sebab benda yang kecil yang kita ada.
Padahal jauh di sudut bumi yang lain manusia lain bersungguh meminta pada tuhan untuk mendapatkan hal yang sama.

Lupa bersyukur.
Bukan masalah kecil kecilan.

Allah.
Syukur ku untuk hari ini.
Syukur ku untuk segala sekian nikmat sepanjang 24 ini.
Syukur untuk yang di sana.

Alhamdulillah, syukur.

:)

Page 77: Kenyit-kenyit

...

1)Kelopak mata sebelah kanan bahagian atas – nak tengok / akan berjumpa orang jauh atau lama terpisah atau akan mendapat berita baik
2)Kelopak mata sebelah kanan bahagian bawah – akan mendapat berita gembira
3)Kelopak mata sebelah kiri bahagian atas – seseorang yang jauh atau lama terpisah teringin nak jumpa kita
4)Kelopak mata sebelah kiri bahagian bawah – akan menangis (akibat berita kurang baik / musibah)

Motipnye.
Mata asek gerak2.
Saje tempek menda tu kat atas.
Mungkin tak boleh percaya.
Yelah semua qada' qadar kan.
Terima jelah seadanya.


Cepat lah benti kenyit2 ni.
Rasa cam tengah mengorat org puloks.
Geli makss.

Page 52: Strong

source:tumblr

I AM STRONG

Page 51 : Television

Disebabkan bersekolah di sekolah berasrama (masa sekolah menengah), tengok tv bukan hobi sangat pon.
Maksudnye dekat sekolah la.
Kalau cerita betul2 menarik baru tgk.
Xpon bola.
Sebab susah nk deal dengan perasaan geram bile tengok orang lain emosi sangat.
Makanya bagi menjaga hati sedikit x yah la join org kat bilik tv.
Melainkan ade seketul dua je yg tengok mungkin la boleh pikir nak join.
Ataupun nk kena iron baju.
Sebab bilik tv tu la bilik iron.

Makanya, bila balik rumah masa cuti sekolah, agak menggila la jugak tengok tv.
Siap hafal semua stesyen tv punya rancangan.
Pukul berapa, drama apa, semua tau.
Fuhhh.
Kadang2 tak menarik pon.
Tapi tangan pegang remote.
Tukar2 channel.
Sambil membebel boring.
Tukar channel lagi dan lagi.
(rumah xde astro sekian)

Tapi.
Akan tetapi.
Hayat ke-heksaitedan menengok tv (menangis cikgu bm baca ayat ni) turun ke paras zero.
Semua sejak masuk degree.
Semua sejak ada laptop.
Semua sejak kewujudan internet.
Fuhh.
Tak pandai menari salahkan papan senget.
Peribahasa x boleh pon nak guna dalam situasi ni.

Sejak wujud laptop, internet, facebook dan serba mak nenek lain, tv jadi langsung x menarik.
Kecuali la time servis internet takdak.
Wahaha.

Kalau dulu boleh la kan kita nak sebut tengok tv.
Tapi sekarang istilah yang releven tentang cara saya tengok tv sebenarnya adalah mendengar tv.
Mendengar.

Macam mana?
X susah pon.
Mata pandang laptop.
Tapi telinga dengar la tv tu.
Kan tv ade suara.
Wee..
Kalau cerita best pon jeling selang 10 minit.
Kalau terlepas bnda penting x susah pon nk catch up.
Tanya je sape2 depan tv tu.
Soalan lazim berbunyi begini;

"Eh ape dah jadi?"
"Ni sapa?"
"Awat dy buat camtu?"
"Awat jadi lagu tu?"

Senang kan?
Ni habit dari dulu lagi.
Kalau kat rumah sewa housemate tgh tengok movie reramai, tumpang tgk2 sekejap2 je.
Lebihan yang lain macam biasala.
Online.
Dan lepas tu tanya soalan seperti yang tertera diatas.
Agaknye sebab tu napsu nak masuk cinema tadak.
Jimat duit kot belah tu.
Buang duit kot belah lain.
Miahahaha.

Takleh pakai ni. Haha.

So istilah tengok tv da jadi kurang releven la.
Kalau org tanya tgh buat apa.
Jawapan dy;
Online sambil denga tv.

Pon boleh.

Page 47

Sampai satu tahap, malas itu paling tinggi.
Malas kebaikan mungkin.
Paling malas denga kisah cakap2 belakang.
Paling malas dengar mengadu mengada.
Tapi mungkin bergantung pada orangnya.

Kalau dulu, boleh dengar lg, walaupun x amek port.
Tadah telinga.
Dengar.
Tapi tu mungkin cerita tahun lepas dan lepas dan lepas.
Mungkin.

Apapun, malas dah tinggi langit.
Tolong.
Bagi peluang menjaga telinga.
Menjaga hati.

Page 23

Dah 23 hari tahun ni.
Baru nak tulis2.
Almaklumlah bizi kengkononnye.
Oh hari ni birthday aiee.
Happy 24 dear!

Smlm sungai petani.
Hari ni rumah sajelah.

Kemas kemas.
Haisshhhh malas nya!
Teruk teruk.