Page 342: Im Hurt, Much

Im hurt.
Much.

 Because I need to talk to someone.
But I cant find any. 

Because you are so busy with your world.
You forget that you are my world. 

Because everything else is so important.
It hurt me to the core.

 Because excuses is the only thing that you can give.
You forget you give me thousands of them.
Excuses will always be excuses.
Excuses is not apology.
But thousands of apology eventually become excuses.

 Because I dont have any other choices.
I make up my mind. That enough is enough.

Enjoy your life.
Im not there to entertain you anymore.
You deserved to be out of my life.
And I deserve better.

Im hurt.
Much.

Page 339: "The wound is still there"

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper.
His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.
The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence.
Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down.
He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.
Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all.
He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.
The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence.
He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there." 

Page 275: Correction Mode

Hello Oktober!

Masih mode correction.

Semoga semuanya baik-baik saja oktober.

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Page 202: Ramadhan the 12th

Weekend well spent.
Alhamdulllah.
Tak de la buat ape pon.
Tapi balik penang.
Well spent la kan.
Now counting hours nak naik bas dah.
Balik kumpul kekuatan dan logik akal kepala otak sebenarnya.
Yela sape la tak down kalau dah sngsorang.
Alone and lonely.
Alonely lonely.
Pon boleh!

Resepi cheesekut sangat awesome.
Simple je tp boleh la kan.
Rupa buruk tapi rasa sangat awesome.
Well dont judge a book by its cover katanya.
Okey tu je nk type.
Bye~

Page 196: Ramadhan the 6th

Bukan setiap masa nak indah belaka.
Supaya kita belajar erti susah payah.
Supaya kita belajar erti berusaha gigih.
Supaya kita belajar erti tak putus asa.
Hidup ni atas bawah selalu je tak kira masa.

Correction process.
Banyak.
Belambak.
Sentiasa doa supaya selalu kuat.
Sentiasa perlu motivasi.
Sentiasa.

Sebab bila je rasa macam duduk sorang2, senang je lah down.
Dalam hati penuh rumah rumah rumah.
Semua cantik gambaran rumah tetap paling cantik.

Sikit lagi faiqah
Sikit betul.
Sikit je.

Be strong!

Page 190: Off Thesis, Viva and Ramadhan

Alhamdulillah.
Last week dah submit the final draft of my dissertation.
Sungguh serabutnya Dia je yang Maha Mengetahui.
Was crying like crazy every night and cry myself to sleep.
Sungguh penangan macam maha dasat.
Tapi memang dah janji Allah kata kalau kita tak mampu tanggung beban tu, tak la kita face benda tu kan.
Sangat terima kasih beri ribu ribu lemon untuk kakak Nurul sebab teman siang malam until the day to submit the final draft.
Jasa mu sungguh dikenang dan tak terbalas rasanya.
Siap teman pegi Johor semua.
Alhamdulillah.

Terima kasih for everyone yang bagi moral support.
Walaupun x mampu nak tolong buatkan kan.
Tapi memang I really need moral support masa-masa kecederaan macam tu.
Sebab bila rasa duduk sendiri sorang-sorang xde orang nak cakap, xde org nak bg support,
laju jelah hujan turun luar dalam.
Allah.
Serabut sangat.
Tapi berkat doa semua orang alhamdulillah the phase was over.
Sempat submit final draft.
Alhamdulillah. Feel so blessed surrounded by positive and inspired people.

Hari ni pulak dah selesai viva.
Alhamdulillah walaupun rasa not that good and far from best tapi berjaya la present and jawab soalan examiner.
Cumenye banyak jugak nak kene betulkan.
Mohon doa semua dapat siap kan correction within the tie given.
Lepas tu boleh la balik beraya dengan hati yang setenang air dikali hendaknye.

tepek gambar sendiri konon hilang nebes nk viva.. hilang lah sgt..blergh

Dan esok dah mula berpuasa.
Kepada semua, Ramadhan Kareem!!
InsyaAllah setiap amalan kita membawa kita ke syurga.
Semoga bertambah amalan dan menuai pahala sehabes baik.
Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa.